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Sorry there still haven't been any new posts. I'm dealing ve..

Published: March 9th 2022, 5:20:17 pm

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Sorry there still haven't been any new posts. I'm dealing very badly with the situation in Europe despite not being in immediate danger at all here in Germany. Since the attack on the nuclear plant in Ukraine last Friday I've been anxious to the point of barely being able to function, I barely eat, I do catastrophic thinking all day, there's no way for me to even think of taking any nudes or anything. If that changes you'll see it here. I don't know when I'm able to post again. I'm sorry, and feel free to unsub. I tweeted (same username) a few places where you can donate for Ukraine and I posted on OF a link to a reddit post with donation sites too in case you missed it. I'm getting a new precription for an anxiolytic med that I used to take in the past and that can hopefully help me in this situation too. I'm nothing like the incredibly brave Ukrainians and I'm just basically fucked in the head since the thing at the nuclear power plant happened. Hope you guys are well

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I'm sorry I didn't post anything recently.

There is a reason, and it's difficult for me to speak about this now, but I want to let you know anyway.

Unfortunately, I've lost everything again. 

I didn't know anything could be worse than just lose your home and live outside in the tent, like I did 6 months ago. These 6 months after street life was really productive and quiet, which I really needed at that moment. But I've lost everything again... And it's even worse, because I lost my only one bank card and I can't issue another one due to the fact I'm russian by passport. 

I can't pay for apartment, food, I can't ask for help and I can't work and withdraw the results of my job anymore. 

I guess most people won't understand how it is possible. Your news probably saying: "only "rich" russians for banned/restricted from services". But not only rich and big people, as you can see on my example.

I'm not complaining, people in Ukraine have bigger problems and I'm there with all my heart, as a Ukrainian too (my mom is Ukrainian). I only wish Ukraine have freedom from terrorist country. And I supported Ukraine in every way I was able to.

But now I can't even receive my money from this platform. I can't have life, just a standard one, of a normal human being. 

You can't imagine all your cards stopped working. But this is what I've got now, this is my reality. I don't know where I will go tomorrow. What I will do with such a passport which keep being rejected from everywhere. I don't feel I have a place on this planet at all. It's not possible for me to travel, cause I can't pay even for food now. I don't know, what a person supposed to do in this situation. For me it's all over. 

You still can enjoy a big job that I've done here. I'll leave it for now, and maybe one day the money that been collecting here will help me somehow. If I'll ever have a privilege to have a bank card. But for now I just simply don't have opportunity to continue filming. 

I hope to see you all again one day...

I'm sorry I didn't post anything recently. There is a reason, and it's difficult for me to speak about this now, but I want to let you know anyway. Unfortunately, I've lost everything again. I didn't know anything could be worse than just lose your home and live outside in the tent, like I did 6 months ago. These 6 months after street life was really productive and quiet, which I really needed at that moment. But I've lost everything again... And it's even worse, because I lost my only one bank card and I can't issue another one due to the fact I'm russian by passport. I can't pay for apartment, food, I can't ask for help and I can't work and withdraw the results of my job anymore. I guess most people won't understand how it is possible. Your news probably saying: "only "rich" russians for banned/restricted from services". But not only rich and big people, as you can see on my example. I'm not complaining, people in Ukraine have bigger problems and I'm there with all my heart, as a Ukrainian too (my mom is Ukrainian). I only wish Ukraine have freedom from terrorist country. And I supported Ukraine in every way I was able to. But now I can't even receive my money from this platform. I can't have life, just a standard one, of a normal human being. You can't imagine all your cards stopped working. But this is what I've got now, this is my reality. I don't know where I will go tomorrow. What I will do with such a passport which keep being rejected from everywhere. I don't feel I have a place on this planet at all. It's not possible for me to travel, cause I can't pay even for food now. I don't know, what a person supposed to do in this situation. For me it's all over. You still can enjoy a big job that I've done here. I'll leave it for now, and maybe one day the money that been collecting here will help me somehow. If I'll ever have a privilege to have a bank card. But for now I just simply don't have opportunity to continue filming. I hope to see you all again one day...